I have chosen to start making a dairy since I’ve seen people write cools things about their life’s and the struggles. I personally believe the struggles in life are the best since they promote change within yourself in order to become a better person and that pain can last for god knows how long, but pain is temporary so you can to get something out of it or let it eat you away. The trouble with my struggle is the whole summer I felt like a lost everything in life. My job, my ex girlfriend, my social life, and just myself. It’s taken a long time to get over the hump and start over with my life. I understood the decision my ex girlfriend made by caring about her happiness and i do regret how i spoke to her the last time I talked to her, but I can’t change that. All i can do is be grateful of the time we had together and how even in the end she cared for me and I never realized it until recently. It brings a smile to my brown face every time I think about her since I’m sure she’s happy with her own life and I know she basically dropped me from her life and has no reason to even talk to me. I can’t worry about her and thats ok since she stopped for me a long time ago. I really look forward to my new job and meeting new people. I have recently been really confident about myself and have talked to many new girls, but so far their physical appearance is good for my standards and their personalities aren’t half bad, but no one has that certain glow that makes me want to purse something like a serious relationship with them. I look forward on writing more of these of posts. GG
Today i just have to wait for 4 am tomorrow since that’s when i have to get up for work on saturday. I basically just played video games all day until i find a way to get enough sleep for work. I miss her very much still even though i did nothing today, but i still feel empty inside and sometimes i enjoy it since its a feeling I’ve been used to when i was growing up. She did make my night with this.